A woman in Arizona has said she didn’t have a choice but to kill a 16-year-old autistic boy who died of head trauma and pneumonia after being restrained by police.
In a video posted online, Rachel Gorman said she “couldn’t control my anger” and “felt compelled” to shoot the boy, who was strapped to a chair.
“I thought, ‘I’m going to kill this guy, I’m going a kill him,'” she said in the video.
“I’m not a murderer.
I’m just doing what I think is right, right?
But when I look at the situation and I look around me, I think I did the right, I did what was right.”
Gorman said the teen was handcuffed, bound and held down by two police officers who “just looked at me like, ‘You’re a killer’.”
The Arizona Republic reported that Gorman’s account of the incident is consistent with other police videos of the event, which showed police handcuffing the autistic boy and then restraining him while a second officer handcuffed Gorman, who said she was resisting.
“She just said, ‘Shut up,'” Gorman told the newspaper.
“And I was like, What’s the point?
I didn’t want to do it.
I thought I did a good thing.
And it didn’t work out.”
Gormer told the paper that she is considering legal action against the city and the police department.
“This was not a case of me not wanting to do something, I was just not going to do the right things, so I felt compelled to do what I thought was right,” she said.
Gorman is the second police officer in Arizona to be accused of a misconduct charge.
She was fired in September after the department’s internal affairs investigation found she “improperly used her position” to make contact with the autistic teen.
Gormers firing comes just months after the city of Mesa, Arizona, cleared two officers in the fatal shooting of a 16 year-old boy who was shot by police while he was handcuffed.
The Mesa Police Department said on Monday that an internal affairs review found that the officer who fired the fatal shot was justified in his actions.
The boy’s family is seeking unspecified monetary damages.
The family also is seeking to get the Mesa Police officers who shot and killed the autistic teenager reinstated.